Archives for January 2005

The sleepless nights,

The daily fights,

The quick toboggan when you reach the heights–

I miss the kisses and I miss the bites.

I wish I were in love again!

The broken dates,

The endless waits,

The lovely loving and the hateful hates.

The conversation with the flying plates–

I wish I were in love again!

Lorenz Hart, “I Wish I Were in Love Again” (music by Richard Rodgers)

“Magic is directed almost entirely to men, you know. And it’s a return for them to boyhood, childhood. It has nothing to do with women, who hate it–it irritates them. They don’t like to be fooled. And men do.”

Orson Welles (quoted in David Thomson, Rosebud: The Story of Orson Welles)

When you have an unusual last name–in my case, extremely unusual–it’s always startling to stumble across it in print and realize that the party in question isn’t you. This has been happening quite a bit in recent days, so I thought perhaps I should explain that I am not Zephyr Teachout, nor have I had anything to say, in print or out, regarding Daily Kos‘ relationship with the Howard Dean campaign, in which Zephyr played a prominent and widely reported role. Nor will I. Ever. You can count on it. (If you don’t know what I’m talking about, visit Zephyr’s blog for details.)

To be sure, I’ve always wanted to meet Zephyr, with whom I exchanged friendly e-mails around the time that her name first started popping up in news reports about the Dean campaign. She’s obviously very smart and very nice, and we concluded that we must be related–I mean, how could two Teachouts not be related? I hope our paths cross someday.

Nevertheless, she’s not me, nor am I her.

Responses to last week’s post on demonstrative reading have been all over the map. Most people I heard from seemed to take for granted the attention-seeking dimension of reading in public and wondered what all my fuss was about. I suppose it’s become a banal observation what with the boom in Starbuck’s-sitting and, of course, the invasion of the bookstore-cafes. More to the point, though, I shied away in my post from admitting just how painfully self-conscious this variety of reading could be when I was younger. Sometimes there was very little turning of pages at all but very much furtive looking up to see whether I’d been noticed. I must have looked ridiculous. Also, on rare occasions I managed to stick myself with a book I really, really didn’t want to read. I drew the line at books in other languages, but New Directions translations could be irresistible. These days I’m unlikely to be seen reading anything very impressive at all, since it’s the Westlakes (but not the Starks, mind you, which are trade paperbacks), John D. MacDonalds, and Reginald Hills that fit best in my purse.

Over at Tingle Alley, Carrie has come up with a few delicious anecdotes about demonstrative reading gone wrong. Herein you’ll find the memorable lament “Oh no, you’re one of those girls who walk around reading Cort

I recently noticed in our referral log that somebody had been sent to “About Last Night” as a result of searching Google for “terry + teachout + gay.” Curious as to what else this anonymous investigator succeeded in turning up, I clicked through to the search results and saw…well, not much. Outside of my review of Mystic River (in which I mentioned Marcia Gay Harden) and a passing reference to Cole Porter’s The Gay Divorce, I found only coincidental juxtapositions of those three words that happened to pop up on the same URL. If someone out there in cyberspace was longing for the lowdown on my private life, I fear the party in question came up empty-handed.

I can’t help but wonder what prompted this mysterious electronic inquiry. Might it have been an uncomfortable reader who, puzzled by my consistent failure to conform to his firmly settled politico-aesthetic preconceptions, longed to stuff me into a more reassuring pigeonhole? Or was he merely looking to add an item or two to a file somewhere or other? In either case, my suggestion is simple: ask Our Girl. She knows all my secrets. (So do the FBI and the White House, but they’re not telling.)

Alas, anyone who knows me more than casually would be likely to dissolve into helpless giggles if asked such a question. My sexual preferences are laughably self-evident, not to mention single-minded, though I doubt you could figure them out by administering a cultural questionnaire via e-mail. I mean, what kind of weirdo likes Rio Bravo and Pacific Overtures? Or Mark Morris and the Louvin Brothers? (Well, Mark does, but then he’s really weird.)

The point being, of course, that it simply doesn’t matter, nor should it (unless you’re going out on a date with me, in which case it’s highly relevant). I don’t put all of myself on this blog, or into my published writings, but the part I exhibit in public is absolutely, unequivocally the real right thing. I am, in short, what I seem to be, and if you don’t think it adds up, let that be a lesson to you: the only way to stuff a human being into a pigeonhole is to cut off pieces until he fits.

UPDATE: I came back from lunch to find a new search in the referral log: “terry + teachout + claims + he + isn’t + gay.” Oh, puh-leeze.

Overheard:

HE: I want somebody to love me.

SHE: I want somebody to pay me.

On Saturday morning I sat down at my desk and started writing my Louis Armstrong biography. By mid-afternoon I’d finished drafting the 850-word preface. I think it’s good, and so did several friends to whom I sent the paragraph I liked best. Then I broke down the main events and transition points of Armstrong’s life story into an eight-chapter outline, using fragments from Armstrong’s own writings for chapter titles (just as I did with The Skeptic).

Feeling that I’d done enough for one day, I shut up my iBook and took a cab to the opening of the Jane Freilicher retrospective currently on view at Tibor de Nagy Gallery. I was joined by a friend who knows his way around the art world, and when we arrived he said to me, “Would you like to meet Jane?” She’s one of my favorite painters–one of her prints is in the Teachout Museum–so naturally I said yes. My friend took me up to Freilicher and made the introduction, and she shook my hand and said, “Oh, yes, I know who you are–I really liked your Balanchine book.” Had there been an open window handy, I would have jumped out of it and floated all the way down to Park Avenue.

Instead, I descended to the street via conventional means, had fondue with friends at La Bonne Soupe, then strolled over to Zankel Hall, the small auditorium beneath Carnegie Hall, where Chris Thile, the stupefyingly virtuosic mandolin player of Nickel Creek, was giving a duet recital in the company of Edgar Meyer, the best bass player of any kind in the known universe. The music
they played together was by turns complex, direct, funky, pensive, and ecstatic, and the two of them were in such touchingly high spirits that I was forcibly reminded of why it is that we speak of playing music.

After the second number, Chris looked at the audience, his mouth a perfect O of bliss, and shouted, “Carnegie…freaking…Hall!” The crowd exploded in laughter and cheers.

I went straight home from there but couldn’t sleep for sheer happiness, so I stayed up and wrote until two in the morning. It was an amazing day, but in a way the most amazing thing about it was that it wasn’t an especially unusual day. I have days like that all the time–maybe not quite that showstoppingly fine, but often pretty damn close.

How lucky am I? You don’t have to tell me. I soooo know.

– Mr. Alicublog goes to the movies:

Also revisited Kubrick’s Lolita. Like Wilder in Kiss Me, Stupid, Kubrick was doggedly exploring the terrain of 60s sex comedy; unlike Wilder, he has no skill at sex comedy of any sort — the best male sex-comedians dance at the edge of misogyny, whereas Kubrick had long since progressed from misogyny to misanthropy. I can see why he was attracted to Humbert’s obsession, but having to deal with the female half of the equation appears to have baffled him: The moments of sympathy for Charlotte Haze seem tacked on like guilty afterthoughts and Sue Lyon is practically exterminated as Lolita — only her body and brash tone survive….

Yes, totally. (I don’t like Stanley Kubrick at all, by the way. I, too, watched Lolita on cable the other night, but only to wallow in James Mason’s dark-brown, Yorkshire-tinged accent. I can’t think of a Hollywood voice I like better, male or female.)

– The ever-satisfying Ms. Household Opera goes to the annual Modern Language Association convention and breathes a sigh of relief at having resumed her civilian status:

But well before the end of it, I was thanking multiple deities that I will never again have to write in the machete mode of criticism. By this I mean the kind of literature scholarship that frames all its main points as a demolition of everyone else’s main points, like mowing down those around you by swinging a machete around. In graduate school it didn’t take me long to tire of academic writing in which the argument was preceded by hatchet-jobs on the prior work of Professors X, Y, and Z; I hated writing like that even more. Hearing it again from the lips of senior scholars, some of whom posed their entire talks as point-by-point refutations of someone else’s article, reminded me of everything that put me off the idea of writing the sorts of things one gets tenure for. At one point, I had the odd feeling that I was watching a large group of people standing on a tiny patch of ground, elbowing and jostling each other for more space, all trying to outshout each other.

No wonder I so often used to feel like no matter how hard I worked, I could never be good enough. Blargh. I don’t miss it one little bit….

Blargh. Is that better or worse than arrgh?

– Comes now The Little Professor, that mysterious but nonetheless self-evidently cool non-civilian Victorianist, with a link to an almanac-worthy remark by Colin Burrow, followed by reflections thereon. The quote:

“Shakespeare may or may not have been Catholic, but generally if a document that sounds too good to be true is found exactly where you’d hope to find it and then goes missing in mysterious circumstances it is indeed too good to be true.”

Sad but true, as any halfway decent biographer (or journalist! or journalist!) can tell you.

– An unknown visitor to the new MoMA recently damaged Anne Truitt’s “Catawba,” which is no longer on display. Tyler has the scoop, plus links. (Scroll up and down for more.)

– Mr. Decline and Fall, an American living in Iraq, keeps his ears open:

What do they listen to? Let’s just say that there’s very little sense of “cool” or “trendy” in their listening habits. One can’t expect people who have spent their lives living under Saddam’s thumb to have any real sense of hipster do’s and don’t’s, but even those who have lived in America for a while and have come back here to work as linguists can almost be relied upon to be fans of Celine Dion. It’s actually gotten to the point where as soon as a discussion of music begins, I say to the nearest Arab, “You like Celine Dion, don’t you?” They always reply in the affirmative.

On some level this completely un-self-conscious appreciation of melody and the human voice is refreshing in a world where you are sometimes identified by your music preference. When someone says they like Billy Ray Cyrus or DMX or Franz Ferdinand or Marilyn Manson, we assume that tells us something about them. Unaware of the pitfalls of music-as-identity, these folks just listen to what they enjoy. On the other hand, I can’t shake the thought that Western Music consists in their eyes of nothing but insipid crap….

Yesterday I was getting an Arabic lesson from a local national friend when he looked across my desk and saw the new Nirvana box set. I explained, through words and gestures, about Nirvana’s music and Kurt Cobain’s untimely demise and concluded very quickly that he would not be able to appreciate what an earth-shattering event “Smells Like Teen Spirit” was, so I showed him my iPod. I dialed up Ella Fitgerald singing “Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered,” but he didn’t like the fact that he couldn’t understand the words. So I let him listed to Edith Piaf singing “La Vie en Rose” with the thought that if neither of us knew what was going on lyrically we’d be on the same page. No dice: “Too old,” he said.

Then I decided to try an instrumental selection: one of J.S. Bach’s Violin Concertos, played by Hilary Hahn. He had never heard anything like it before. For a moment I pondered the stark implications of a culture that had heard Yanni but not Mozart, Celine Dion but not Ella Fitgerald, Country but not Blues. “This is a much bigger clash of cultures than I had ever imagined,” I heard myself say. But the look on his face as he struggled to turn the volume up on that exquisite music made it all better….

I sure hope somebody out there tells Hilary Hahn about this posting. (You may need to scroll down a bit to find it, by the way.)

– Speaking of great moments in Western culture, Mr. From the Floor recently paid a visit to the “Mona Lisa”:

The point of seeing the piece, for almost all visitors, is to say that they have seen it. Tourists don’t really go to the Louvre to look at the Mona Lisa. They go so that when they return home they can tell friends that they saw the painting.

Those of us who spend time looking at and writing about art tend to be condescending toward the masses that gather in front of da Vinci’s painting–looking, as they do, to the work to provide validation for their trip to Paris.

Unfortunately, though, many of us do the same. Reading through top ten list after top ten list this month in both the print media and around the blogosphere has made me realize that too many art writers neglect seeing exhibitions in their haste to prepare for saying that they have seen them….

Oh, yes. Yes-and-a-half.

– Lastly, Lileks reflects on some non-political aspects of the great red-blue divide:

I love some bustle. I prefer to commute to the bustle, however, not be embustled 24-7. Myriad options are nice, but I suspect that 84% of these options consist of “ethnic food, readily available,” and the other 12% are made up of museums and concerts most urban dwellers rarely have time to attend.

But at least they’re there if you want them! In any case, it’s somehow flattering to know you live in a place where someone, right now, is setting up an art installation that forces us to rethink the way we think about something. Anything. Except the historical failure of art installations to make anyone rethink about anything, ever….

Or you get exhilarated, depending on your mood and temperament, or depending on something as simple and unique as turning a corner in Manhattan during the blue hour, looking through a store window into a salon, heading up the sidewalk with the traffic streaming the other way, forty stories of lights rising up on either side, and thinking: nowhere else but here, and here I am. Having lived on the East Coast, I can see why some people love it. And I understand why I didn’t, in the end. At some point in your life you may think I’d prefer a little less public urination, if I might. The fact that some prefer the Big City strikes me as utterly unremarkable, and I’d bet that most people in Red states don’t think much about why Blue staters like to live in concentrated urban centers. Why? Because they don’t care. They know that the big cities have advantages the rural areas lack, but they’re not that important to them, and they don’t worry about what they’re missing. If they do, then they move….

Speaking as one who did–but continues to retain his home ties–I’d say this is exactly right.