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It was tempting to quote large chunks of the transcript in my piece, but I decided to keep things short and snappy for a change. Might do more with it later, though. Passages stick in mind as touchstones for thinking about various questions that have dogged me for a while.

While reading it the first time, I wanted to tell all the participants, "Okay, once you hit your forties, then we'll talk about regret. Because seriously, this is the journeyman version." But that is probably tempting fate. Some still more disgruntled future subjectivity may want to travel back in time to kick my ass for writing this.

In any case, I'm hoping to cultivate enough amour fati to get through midlife in one piece. The booklet is useful in that regard. It proves that the doubts and second guesses are inescapable. Having read it, I feel less regret about all the regret of the past dozen years.